Friday, September 28, 2007

O.M.G. Becky...

I am wearing pants today that are literally clinging for
dear life
in the hopes that they stay above the crack line,
if you know what I mean.
Good thing the waistband on my undies goes up past my naval
or we'd be in real trouble
I could, quite literally,
with what I got going on in my trunk,
be in a rap video
like this girl:

This is NOT quite what my rear view looks today, but this is the only picture I could find without being too graphic in my google search for
"rap girls"
Since it's Friday
let's re-cap the highlights of my week:
1. The Office is back
2. Thursday night TV is back
3. Jim and Pam (or PB&J according to Kevin) are an item
4. BYU has a cool art exhibit
5. I felt even cooler for wanting to go when I saw that 'Nervs was featured in this month's Ensign as well.
Go 'Nervs and go see this exhibit
6. I boycotted the gym for 3 days this week
7. I ate chocolate cake yesterday
8. I haven't cooked dinner once this week
9. Fall is here
10. if my administrative professional career doesn't work out
I could very well have a future dancing in rap videos
Diddy, you hiring?

Thursday, September 27, 2007

the wait, is OVER

Oh SNAP!!!

Crazy Like a Fox

Sometimes I think I'm crazy. Actually, it happens a lot more than sometimes. Me thinking I'm crazy that is. I have various moments of clarity/complete confusion throughout the day when I wonder what's going on in my head? This could be due to the fact that my hormone levels fluctuate somewhere between Mt. Everest and the Great least that's what I like to blame it on.
I talk to myself out loud quite a bit, and I talk to other people in their cars when I'm driving, as if they can hear me, and I always call women drivers "Stella". I don't know why. Male drivers are referred to as "d-bags". If you don't know what that means, I don't know why you're reading my blog. It goes a little something like this:
"yes Stella, merging into my lane WAS indeed an awesome idea. You go right ahead, don't mind that I'm in your way"
"you D BAG (!!!*@#$U%*Y#$&!!!), who the EFF taught you to drive??"
I have have a legitimate fear that my thighs look like Bonnie Blair's (the olympic speedskater, remember?).

When I eat a sandwich or anything wrapped in a bun or bread of some type. I always pick off the excess bread, the part that isn't touching the heart of the sandwich, because I think subconciously that I am somehow eating better because I'm eliminating those extra calories. I also feel better about myself when I don't completely finish whatever it is I'm eating, whether it be a giant sized polish dog from Costco, or a donut from Krispy Kreme. As long as there's at least one bite left that I didn't consume, I feel okay about eating the other 90%. My dinner plate often looks like a war zone when I'm finished with it, parts of my meal scattered around like casualties.

I have a deep seeded fear of barnacles, like the crusty things that live on whales and attach themselves to boats and piers and other ocean things. Watching Pirates of the Carribean parts 2 and 3 was physically painful for me thanks to Davey Jones and his damn crustacean face. I actually threw up in my mouth a little when that barnacle sprouts out of his cheek in part 2 (I think it was part 2). After the first Pirate movie, they all kind of ran together for me, but I digress.
I read books abnormally fast, and sometimes don't absorb a lot of what I just read. I have a difficult time reading the scriptures for this very reason. Maybe that's why I don't seem to remember a lot from college???
I worry a lot that about things I can't control, to the point that I have trouble falling asleep and staying asleep at night.
I have a compulsive need to keep my nails clean. Fake nails gross me out even though I used to wear them myself.
I get extremely annoyed by this one guy at work, and roll my eyes at him every time he turns his back to me. I'm thinking this might catch up to me one day, but I have no idea how to control myself on this matter.
I am kind of obsessive about how my underwear pinch me just so that it looks like I have an extra fat roll. Like I needed an extra fat roll in the first place. I am continually trying to figure out how to make the fat roll go away or to make my waistband less pinchy. It drives me NUTS.
Dog hair grosses me out, more than pretty much anything. And yet I have a dog who leaves his hair everywhere. Sometimes I don't like my dog very much.
I enjoy cleaning bathrooms, and bleach is one of my favorite scents.
I think freckles are attractive. In fact, I miss tanning because I used to get so freckly.
My relief society president doesn't like me, but I don't much like her either. I feel bad about this. And then I get over it.
I could go on for days like this...
I guess I just felt the need today to get it out there. Somedays I'm okay with being so crazy, other days I feel like a weirdo.
And that's okay with me.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

The art in my heart

I want to go to THIS exhibit at the


(click on her name to learn more about her)

artiste magnifique

(I don't know French, I am completely making up how to spell and say things)

She raised her family in Cokeville, Wyoming of all places

who knew??

Minerva (or Nervs, if you will)
painted the incredible mural that graces the "world" room in the Manti Temple
if you've been there you know the one I'm talking about
that mural always fascinates me every time I'm there
I love the use of color
the diversity of the people
the intensity and chaos of the scenes
it seems such an appropriate commentary on how the world really is
and I love it for that reason alone
Manti is, of course, my very favorite temple
I love it's rich history
my heart never fails to skip a beat when I spot it
keeping watch on the hill
I love it because it reminds me of that day
and that
families are forever
and I needed that today

Sunday, September 23, 2007


The Countdown is On
T-Minus 4 days
Season 4

I hope I don't wet myself with excitement...
Here's an interesting factoid for all you Office watchers:
This is BJ Novak
also known as Ryan Howard
did you know that BJ/Ryan went to high school with
John Krasinski/Jim Halpert??
Did you know that BJ/Ryan graduated from Harvard??
Did you know that BJ/Ryan used to be on Punk'd?
Did you know that BJ/Ryan is a writer and Lead Producer for the Office??
Did you know that BJ/Ryan wrote:
"diversity day", "sexual harrasment", and my personal favorite
"safety training"
among other glorious episodes??
Did you know that I only know all of this stuff because Hub is the king of random facts of useless knowledge and he told me?
well now you do
man i love tv


Saturday, September 22, 2007

bRuNcH with ShAr

On this fine (rather cloudy and overcast) Saturday morn
Shar and I met for brunch
thus cementing our status
SuPeR Bloggers

You See:
Shar lives in New Mexico
and I live in Utah
and previous to this day
we had never met face to face
we were brought together by the
world of blogging

I was a little jealous because she showed up with a hot date

ladies and gents, I give you



probably one of the top 10
cutest babies in the world


Kneaders, as always, was delicious

I thoroughly enjoyed myself

and I hope Shar did too

because we promised to do it

everytime she come to Utah

which I hope is a lot

Click HERE to read all about Shar and the men in her life

oh and p.s. Shar, I made some pumpkin chocolate chip cookies

just for you when I got home

come and get 'em!!

Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Wednesday's are for Winners

Here is what I plan on doing today:
Alternating between trips to the candy dish for Halloween M&M's
peanut mind you

I'd like to thank my Blackberry Pearl for pinch hitting in place of my
Canon SureShot
who is out with a dead battery...
We hope to have it feeling better soon
I'd also like to thank my boss for being sick
allowing me to lay around in my bath robe
in exchange for working from home
Happy Hump Day.

Friday, September 14, 2007

The Calling of Motherhood

This is a rather personally revealing post for me, so please, be warned

The other day while browsing through Segullah, I read through this post (find it HERE) about motherhood and the reasoning behind it. I've been thinking about my own reasoning ever since... Don't get me wrong, I think about being a mother all of the time. Those of you who know me certainly know that and know the struggles we (being me and Hub of course) have faced in this endeavor. I think I feel extra reflective this week in particular because Saturday, September 15th 2007 is/was the due date for our first baby.

What made me want to be a mother in the first place?

Of course, we are commanded to do so which weighs in heavily on the "reasons for having a baby" scale. But why do I personally feel this desire so strongly? I've always loved children, babies in particular, and always knew that motherhood was something I wanted in my future, something that I thought would be easy when it came down to the actual process of getting pregnant and having a baby. I used to eye the cute pregnant women, their round bellies swelling with life and wonder when my turn would come? I just knew, motherhood was it for me.

When Hub and I were first married (and I use this description lightly since we've truly only been married for a year), he was on the baby-making bandwagon from the beginning (him being the ripe-old-age of 30). I on the other hand, figured we would take some time to enjoy being "just us", a year at least. Plus when it came down to it, actually BEING a mother scared the crap out of me, though the idea is fun to entertain. Nevertheless, it only took about 3 more months and one strong spiritual experience later for me to decide that I needed to get on the bandwagon too. Babymaking became the agenda. That was in October. By December I was pregnant and by February it was over.

The loss of that baby was a hard pill for me to swallow. Why had I been robbed of this experience that I was so convinced was my destiny? I was reassured that "these things happen" and found out that miscarriage was a lot more prevalent that I had thought. By May I was pregnant again, by July that baby had left me too. This time I was just mad. I thought God was telling me I wasn't cut out for it or that I didn't deserve a baby. I felt bitterness towards these women who were on their 2nd or 3rd child, or who didn't plan their pregnancy and were "surprised". Why did they get a baby and I didn't?

Sometimes I still struggle with these feelings, but I've come to realize a few things thankfully:

Motherhood isn't about when or how you become a mother, it's about who you become a mother to, and who you become as a mother. I realize that I am already a mother, that my babies are waiting for me to find a way to get them here, and that it is up to me to keep trying. I realize that I have been humbled,and that the Lord has many great things planned for my future. I realize that my own time line is nothing in comparison to the eternal timeline. I realize that I am married to my soulmate, and whatever challenges we face, we will face together and somehow I know we'll be alright. I realize that I must have faith.

I want to be a mother because I know that's what I'm supposed to be.

Until I get my own babies, I will remember how cute THIS baby was and practice all my skills on him.
Lucky dog...

oh Gussy

A Cause for Celebration

Thank YOU Wikipedia:

Friday (pronunciation IPA: [fɹaɪ.deɪ] or [fɹaɪ.di]) is the day of the week falling between Thursday and Saturday. It is the sixth day in countries that adopt a Sunday-first convention. In ISO 8601, in work-based customs, and in countries adopting Monday-first conventions, it is considered the fifth day of the week. (See Days of the week for more on the different conventions.)
In most countries with a five-day work week, Friday is the last workday before the
weekend and is, therefore, viewed as a cause for celebration or relief. In some offices, employees are allowed to wear less formal attire on Fridays, known as Casual Friday or Dress-Down Friday. In Israel, however, Friday is the first day of the weekend, and Sunday is the first workday.

Other things I like about Friday:

1. the dedicated worker I am... I usually leave early on Fridays. I've earned it. What.

2. THIS movie, also about friday, is funny.

3.THIS show has a season premier tonight

Football +FRIDAY= a match made in HEAVEN

4. It is the day before Saturday

5. It means I get 2 days OFF

and that friends, means today is a great day

happy friday everyone

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Oh What a Brewtiful Moooorniiiing!!!

THIS was my breakfast
mmmm... fresh peaches and cottage cheese
(cottage cheese is great, as long as it's not on my thighs)

THESE are my new(er) shoes
lurve the steve madden mary janes
ME being happy that today is Thursday
(meaning tomorrow is Friday)
my tummy is full of deliciousness
my feet are steppin' sexy
my hair cooperated nicely
my lips are red (thanks Azucar)
and my whole ensemble is TOO CUTE

consider my self esteem boosted

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

I am addicted to internet quizzes

MMMkay seriously. What is wrong with me and why do I keep posting these things??

Hub HATES turtlenecks but is quite sensitive and does know a disturbing amount of random facts and useless knowledge. I hardly think he will be quoting me Billy Shakespeare anytime soon... but he DOES have a secret love of musicals, but doesn't know squat about musical theatre.

I'm confused.

I do like me some Jake Gyllenhall however. Sign me up for summa dat!

love you honey (hub i mean)

What Kind of Guy Will You Fall For?

You would fall for the sensitive guy. You'll find your future man wherever turtlenecks are sold. He will have depth, introspection, and a disturbing knowledge of musical theatre. And he may be a little weird. But hey, while your girlfriends cry over broken hearts, you'll be having Shakespeare read to you every night.
Find Your Character @

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

part deux

i think I like this one better...
I've had a girl crush on Amanda Bynes for a long time, i admit.

I'm married to Billy Crystal

I wonder if Hub wants to help save the children just like his twin Sally Struthers???

my celebrity doppelgangers

Annie Lenox and the girl from full house??
I'm going to choose to associate most with the hot latin girls
shake your bon bon

Monday, September 10, 2007

my supercool weekend, ghetto fabulOUS

First of all
this balloon almost LANDED on my house
on Saturday
according to Hub who snapped the photo
he was apparantly afraid for his life
The Connie looking fly
I was SO impressed with her outfit during our lunch date at the
holla Connie, holla back now
my favorite girls in the WHOLE WORLD

Gus in his vehicular "dog jail"
purchased this weekend at Cabelas
15 seconds:
the time it took for him to make us realize
we had failed to install it properly
His eyes are glowing because he is the spawn of Satan himself
at least in the car anyway
Try to catch us riding dirty,
just try
especially with my sister's baby
and Gus in dog jail in the back

Sunday, September 9, 2007

sabbath day ponderings

I think a lot about the future
I wonder what will change in one month
I wonder where I'll be in 6 months
I wonder who I'll be in a year
My hopes
Are that I will be a mother
That I will learn patience in the face of frustration
That I can show my husband love every day
That I can show my family love every day
That I will continue learning every day

That I can be happy the whole way through
(this may require a bit of work)

Picture of the Week 3

I realize that this photo breaks the trend of
but I couldn't NOT post
this one
brewtiful isn't it??
Maybe I'm not such a terrible photograph taker after all.

Friday, September 7, 2007

a lesson in temptation

Temptation: "the act of tempting, enticement, or allurement"
form of: pumpkin chocolate chip cookies

Tempted: Gus the Dog
Yearn: "to have an earnest or strong desire, to long"

Wednesday, September 5, 2007

Musings and Perusings

Changing Seasons Makes Me Nostalgic
(this is the scene in Midway, where we spent our ANNIVERSARY last weekend)
It doesn't help that I was driving through BYU campus on Saturday and observed all the students bustling hither and thither. Brought me back to my own co-ed days spent hiking the stairs by the RB, meeting my besty for a snack -n- scope on the grassy knoll by the fieldhouse, fighting off crowds in the bookstore, people watching in the library, people watching everywhere
(there are too many awkward people at BYU)
going to football games, making fun of the super fans in all their dorkiness, the glory days when I got free tickets and good seats (thanks bro).
I guess I went to class at some point in there.
I have the degree to prove it. When I was at BYU, I wasn't the happiest of campers
But now that I'm grown and all that...
I secretly miss it
Don't tell my mom

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Picture of the Week 2

What do you find at Swiss Days?

Mini Horses pulling wagons: awesome

Portable Handwashing Stations=Awesome

(and sanitary, two of my favorite words)
300 lb 12 year olds= not so awesome

Accordians, lederhosen, keyboards and yodeling=awesome

This sexy guy, dead asleep with his shirt unbuttoned=awesome

winning picture of the week two weeks in a row thanks to this same guy= PRICELESS